OH BOY.......

So, guess who called last Friday. My ex- love of my life. The one who I cried over and said I would never get over. TROY VIDAURE. He said he wanted to be friends. Landon said that we would eventually go out again and I said never. I felt that pain once and I'm afraid that if it were to happen again that I wouldn't live through it. Landon said that I apparently still want him and he knows it. That the morning after he dumped me I called Landon and said that I'd realized we would never be together again. I didn't mean that Troy was never going to relize the huge mistake he made and come back. I meant that when he did relize the mistake he made and came back, that I wouldn't be there. If something went wrong in the first relationship then that's just setting something up to go wrong in the next one. I don't give out second chances. I love you and want you back doesn't make me break down and cry and instantly want him back like other desperate freaks. I don't want him back, he disgusts me! But I was a little heartbroken when he decided to call me when I had finally moved on with my life. When all the pain was gone and I didn't even think about him anymore. It's like for the two months after he dumped me he got in my head and made sure I was in pain. That I would never forget what went on. And he thought that he had accomplished that so he moved on to mess with someone elses head. But when he went back to mine, he was no where in it. Not even a tiny bit of him left. So he had to call and work his way back. That's what seemed to be going on but sadly that's not possible so apparently God wants us to be connected to each other because he seems to always be there now. I guess that's just how things are meant to be. For now. I won't mess with what the universe wants. But, I will once I find out what's going on.

Bye.