Dear Troy.......

Ok, so I wrote a letter to Troy on July 8th but I didn't have enough courage to send it to him. But I do need to get it out sometime, somehow. So I figured that if I put it here that he would never see it.......................... An hour later............ OK never mind. I seemed to have misplaced the letter that took me two freakin days to freakin write!!!!!! Well this is kinda like how it was.

Troy, July 8, 2009

I wish that you would just come and shoot me cause I don't think that I could be in anymore pain. Today makes an exact month since the day you broke up with me. I've lost my best friend, the best boyfriend, and it seems that no one cares for me anymore. I mean I guess they have been tired of my slumpy depressed mood. But anyway, I didn't write this letter to tell you how hurt or how depressed I am, I wrote it to thank you. You were the best I've had in my life. You were the greatest thing since forever! Even though you probably won't, can you tell your dad that I really miss him and that I thought he was super amazing? I really wish you the best and that you become a wonderful pitcher in the pros! You would be a perfect pitcher. I honestly have to say that I am having a very hard time forgetting you. I don't think I ever will, honestly. When I said I would love you forever, I was meaning whether we were together or not. Since you were my first love I never will forget you. I'm not even close to being over you. You can ask Landon, I'm a mess. All I've done is lay in bed and watch What I Like About You. I've lost 13 pounds. Obviously, I'm different from Kelsey. I starve myself when I'm depressed. But anyway, miss you, still love you, and you'll always be in my heart.

Forever and Always,

ASH NICOLE

And thats almost exactly what it said.